Heh` Don't even know where to start... Its only been the first week of school and its like worse than living in hell. I wonder what kind of trick God is playing on me... It's pretty amusing actually. You can think that I'm exaggerating, but right now, i am completely lost in direction right now. I have no idea where my mind is suppose to be. So many bad things have happened lately and i usually don't really care about it but some reason being... this time it was a MAJOR breakdown. So from the top of the list:

• My best friend only came to school for one day so for pretty much the whole week i was alone
• I had to survive at school in the cold weather
• Family Conflict
• The usual ignorance Friday happened again
• My other best freind is ignoring me
• I've been making mistakes at work
• Lost at school
• Gaining Weight
• Too much homework

Have you ever felt that sometimes you just honestly really need someone to talk to, whether its your boy/girl freind, best friend, buddy, family? It doesn't really matter who it is ay... as long as they are willing to listen. I wish i could do that right now. but unfortuanatly i can't be that lucky.

Isn't liking someone difficult? To be honest, I'm really tired from this affection and i think i'm going to give up. (which i am finding really hard doing) What's the point in liking him when he gives me the cold attitude. 

There's just too much happening and writing it all down is not enough. i guess some secrets are just to big and shameful that i feel ashamed thinking about it.  Haha this is random, but half way back home from work tonight... i cried hard out.

Ok this blog is long as but just the last thing i want to say
Calum: If you are ignoring me... I'm sorry for whatever i did ok?
Steven: Sorry about tonight... but this breakdown is really drowning me

so yeah~ thats all i can think of.
Until Then...